i'm pregnant!

erm, I meant I'm technically "pregnant" because there are two little embryos growing inside me at this moment.

and here they are! my possible babies currently at 6-cells each!

My ET was scheduled at 8:30am and as usual, we were early by abt 15mins.  I had drank about a litre of water since I woke up and it was sheer torture sitting there holding my bladder while waiting for my turn.  I was then told, that we always tend to drink too much. In fact, 2 - 3 glasses of water will be sufficient! I heaved a sign of relief and went to the toilet to release half my bladder which is literally at the verge of bursting.  Then i sat down and waaaaaaaaaaaaaited impatiently.  In no time, my bladder was full once again .. sigh .. any women who has gone for ultra scan will be able to tell you how disgusting the feeling is. It was tortuours! I rather take 20 self-administered Lurin or gonal-f than one of this scans. 

I was finally called to the ET room at 5mins to 9am.  The embryo room was just next to the ET room.  Soon, the embryologist arrive.  Spouses were allowed and Vince sat at a chair next to mine.  Mine was a huge incliner with stirrups and attached with scanning machines, monitor and all.  I thought it would be my turn soon but Dr Loh was so slow in coming and my bladder was again full and though the staff nurse&embryologist tried to make me more comfortable by lying me down instead of sitting, it just wasn't helping and after about 10mins, I ran to the toilet despite the shock on their faces .. erm, I seriously do not think I was the first to go to the toilet while waiting on the ET chair? anyway, I do want the procedure to end fast, and I do know they cannot scan unless my bladder is full.  I was also told that a full bladder pushes the womb downwards and will be much easier for ET. So, with that inflicted into my brain, I controlled myself and let go of just a tiny bit out of my bladder. I din't know that was possible until today! 

When I went back to the ET room, I was still feeling urgent.  But since I had waited for about 15mins, I thought my dear Dr Loh would soon arrive .. oh yes he did, after 20mins of wait in all.  By then I was delirious & my mind was practically empty.  And the cool man walked in with a cup of coffee.  I exclaimed:" thank god, you are finally here! what!! i'm dying! 你还喝咖啡!".. He only smile and tell me to relax .. hur?  You try that, Mr Cool Man.

And then he told me:
6 eggs retrieved
5 ready & fertilized
3 were usable, grade 3
1 unusable

I grumbled and complaint to Dr Loh that I was so upset so disappointed I only ER 6 eggs!  Having sufferred PCO all my life, its time it does something for me isnt it?  Dr Loh laughed and said cuz IVF dr scared I will get OHSS la, blah blah blah, so only give me lowest dosage of gonal-f, ie 150iu .. I said I felt well throughout the entire process, they should have more guts than this. 

And the million dollar question:
me: "so dr, what happens if I fail this cycle?"
dr: "try again?"
me: "huh? try another cycle?!! NO WAY! No way am I going to put myself through this process again!"
dr: "aiya don think so much la, you know, most of my patients who have already had one kid succeed at fresh cycle.  You will also la, who knows you might get twins!"
me: "better be the case cuz thawed embryo might not survive ~"
dr: "erm .. yes . "

I was asked if I wanted to transfer 2 or 3 embryos. Dr Loh said its up to me? And I was surprised cuz under govt subsidy, patients are only allowed 2 embryos each time.  I asked his opinion and he said 2. And I agreed.  At that moment, I didnt know I had made a very important decision! 

With my legs in stirrups, and all covered up except where the embryos were to be transferred in, the staff nurse placed the ultrascan on my stomach & after all verificatison is done, Dr Loh began transferring the embryos in.  It was embrassing having a male sitting right between your legs .. well, I was still embrassed and I covered my face with my shawl throughout .. silly me.  Nonetheless, the procedure went pretty well and was over in less than 10mins. The first thing I did thereafter was to ruuuuuuuuun to the toilet.

While waiting outside the ET room for my report, I saw a frantic lady along the corridor.  The moment we had eye contact, she asked if I was done? and that she was still waiting for her turn.  I said she could go release some of her bladder but she said she is the sort who will release it all and would not be able to hold back .. She got a shock when she heard  had sat in the ET room for 20mins while waiting for D-Man!

After collecting the medicine from the pharmacy, Vince sent me to my mom-in-law's place to rest while he goes to work.  Rest I did. I napped from 11 to past 2pm.

And I had to do use these 3 x a day (8am, 3pm, 12am) to support the lining. Each box of 30 caps cost $21.30 & I was given 100 over pills for use till 25 Oct.  No payment was made.  The cost will be dededucted through my medisave.

I was given this schedule and hopefully I do not have to run back to KKH for unscheduled visits (CHOY!). 

I received a call from KKH IVF lab guy in the evening. I think his name is Chong.  According to him, they had rechecked the 2 "unusable" embryos again before discard and realised that one of them is actually good and will be frozen together with the 3rd left over from this morning's ET! I was elated.  Vince was slightly pissed why they did not check thoroughly before this.  But who cares! It was more important to me, that I now have 2 frozen embryos instead of one! And thank god! for had I ET 3 this morning, this newly rescued grade 3 embryo would be a standalone.  Its all mental but I strongly believed the survival rate for a single embryo is freaking low but now my chances have improved!!  What can be better than this?  oh perhaps if I get twin girls?  Though it might freak me out on the increased expenses of rearing 2 new babies, I believe that if God should bless me with my longed for girls, He will also provide for me.  Amen!