so early yet so packed ~ there wasn't a seat unoccupied saved for the ones outside the consultation rooms
I forgot to bring my left-over drugs this morning so they could not tell if I had enough of Gonal-f. I am certain I have enough Lucrin to last another jab though. I saw another dr today, she looks like a south african, very very dark and twisted hair. LOL .. anyway given the time I am probably dued for ER, they do not want to despatch a full 300units gonal-f. That pen which will see me through 2 jabs will cost about $205. And so, dr prescribed me with 2 x 75units & told me to return the next day. And I dutifully collected my appointment form and headed to the pharmacy for my prescription. Oh my! A days' Gonal-f actually cost a good $110.10!
And I finally reached office at 11:50am. I had been reading and replying messages on my BB while waiting at kkh and I knew how busy I'm going to be today, given that I have had the entire morning gone. Thank God for his blessing. I was talking to Kristy at the pantry and decided to open the new gonal-f box. I was surprised to see not a pen, but a pre-filled syringe, a bottle containing some white powder, and two needles, one fine & one frightfully thick! I rang kkh and was told to return so they could tell me how to administer the drug. Apparently the nurse had forgotten to tell me to return after collecting it at the pharmacy! OK fine, since everyone was out for lunch, I had vince come and send me over. They had cleared all patients and I was the only patient at kkh. ivf centre starts their day real early & ends early too. Sara taught me how to but did the jab for me & i returned to the office in exactly an hour since I left for kkh. Not too bad, but I have to stay back to catch up on work.
Naturally, 有人欢喜有人愁. While I am happy that D-Day is drawing near, my boss is pretty unhappy about my impending 2 weeks hospitalisation leave. She aint happy about the scan I had to do every morning as well. She told my colleaguse this is "not a good time" for me to go on such leaves & that I should have given IVF a go when I had lessor projects on hand. I was not disappointed at what was being said because I had expected that from her. Women who conceive easily will never feel for me, what I had to go through. The fact is, I have been trying for a 2nd child for a few years. And I remembered a couple of years back, when Audrey said she was ready for a child and will be planning for one, I was told to judge and not clash with hers. So tell me, when then is a good time? It was a big decision for me to go for IVF.
I know of people wh go through all kinds of alternatives treatment and not give any consideration to IVF. I was like that too. For years, I had seen different gynaes, seen different TMC, taken horribly awful chinese medicine, swallow tons of pills and supplements, acupuncture, etc. If I had known those were useless, I would still have hesitated if I should go for IVF. And boss, yes I will come back to work after 2 wks and no, I am not lazy and certainly not a dumb cow (like someone) who uses all sorts of lousy and stupid excuses not to come to work just becuase she is pregnant. No I will still do my work, but you might want to know that morning sickness is something no one can control? And no, don't worry, I ain't going to put myself through another of this cycle if this one fails, though I should have enough embryos to freeze for a frozen cycle. And boss, please be aware too, that my success rate is only 30% and will decrease with age. So, tell me, when is a good time for IVF?
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