I was at the clinic 10mins ahead of time. Vince was given a bottle and brought to the sperm bank. After putting a name tag on my wrist, a nurse led me to the female changing room to change into white gown & pink kimono for cover up, wearing nothing underneath. I then sat outside the Ops theatre for my turn. About 5mins later, I was led to a corner where a nurse verified my personal details and inserted a tube into my left hand. Having had this done twice before, I knew its going to be painful. And yes, it wasn't a disappointment. It hurts! And then I sat back outside the Ops theatre to wait for my turn. One other patient was there and she told me she is also dr sf loh's patient, she has a 4yr old daughter and she has about 7-8 follicles. She started Lucrin on 9 Sep, 3 days later than me. 5 mins later, I was led to the theatre. It was a frantic of activities within. So much for a "production line". A nurse, Sara, whom i always seen manning the counter (I guess they rotates duties) was within, preparing me for Dr loh who thankfully arrived in about 5mins. He was late for Irene's and she was freezing in the theatre. LOL.
While Sara prepares me, another nurse on my right was busy with don't know what and 3 activities happened at the same time. The anesthetic goes in through the tube on my left hand, some was inserted at where the follicles were to be extracted and a mask goes on to my face all at the same time. The next I knew, I was at the recovery ward & feeling really really happy though I was still dizzy. Happy cos I finally got through ER!! Basically, the whole procedure is painless except the tube in my hand. I did not have a good sleep and kept having dreams. Vince was in all the 3 different dreams I had in that span of 2hrs. I woke up at 11:30am, had a glass of warm water, got changed and was debriefed by the same nurse who put the tube into my left hand.
And I was told 6 eggs were retrieved. 6! I stared at the nurse and asked unbelievably. 6? are you sure its only 6?? I had more than 26! I was so upset I felt like crying. After having the tube removed from my hand and collecting my hospitalization leave chit, I waited outside the consultation room for Vince to pick me up. Then i texted Irene, and the more I wrote her, the more I find myself tear. Irene had 24 eggs removed but only 15 were successfully fertilized. She had 2 for her fresh cycle and the balance frozen. When she failed her first cycle and went for her 1st frozen cycle, 7 embroyos were thawed but just 3 survived. 2 was transferred, 1 refrozen. So in my heart, I panicked. I wonder just how many out of the miserable 6 I retrieved is going to be successfully fertilized? Is it too much to ask of God to have all 6 to be of good quality? Even if half of them got fertilized, my guess is I only have one single chance to conceive, ie the fresh cycle. I do not have the confident that my thawed eggs (if any at all) can survive for a frozen cycle.
Regardless of the quality of the eggs, I was to be there at 8:30am on Monday, 10-Oct-2011 for ET. I was so upset because I had suffered PCO for years! Isn't it time it does something for me? Of all the times, it had to fail me during IVF. I had expected 20 eggs ET at least. I just knew I am not going through this again if I fail to conceive. I salute those women who went through multiple cycles, cause I know I can't. I refuse to put myself through IVF again.
Vince came from home and we went for lunch at compass point before heading home. I had a quick shower and slept till 8.30pm. My dear mother-in-law was so sweet. She made me chicken soup and all my favorite dishes. I was not feeling too well to go over so I had Vince pack dinner back for me instead. Thanks to my MIL, I don't have to take Brands chicken essence. While driving me home from KKH, Vince told me the first thing he did when he reached home (after giving his sperm at the National Sperm Bank), was to have a huge cup of coffee equivalent to the intensity of a double espresso. He is a heavy coffee drinker, always have it black and thick 5 cups a day. I had him cut down to 1 a day. He told me he felt like he has no energy at all for the last 2 weeks and today.
All I can do now is to wait patiently for Monday to come and hope all my eggs are of good quality. My hospitalization leave is from 7 Oct to 25 Oct 2011.
6 Sep to 5 Oct: 10units Lucrin (30 jabs)
22 Sep to 4 Oct: 150units Gonal-f (13 jabs)
5 Oct: 10,000units Pregnyl (at 9pm O&G clinic)
6 Oct: fast from 11:30pm
7 Oct: Ovum Pick-Up Day
these 4 tablets alone costs a whopping $22.96!
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