I had an appointment with Dr Sadanah yesterday & met up with Irene for dinner.
Dr Sadanah was patient and nice yesterday. I told her of how disappointing I was to have only 6 follicles (4 fertilized) druing the first IVF, and that I wan more eggs this time round. I asked for higher gonal-f or purogon. Well, I will make sure I be hardworking this time round and monitor the progress on my own.
I was expected to do a sonohysterography and vince to test his sperm again.
Pending: call KKH on day 1 of MC
Friday, May 10, 2013
Sunday, April 28, 2013
my HG foundation! finally!
I have always been on a lookout for a foundation good enough for my oily/combination skin. It has not been easy because in addition to oily/combi, my skin is also sensitive. I get breakouts from products very frequently & as a result, I have never repurchased any foundation. None of them are good enough for me to call it my HG .. Until my sister gave me a bottle of Chanel Mat Lumiere Foundation SPF15. I'm pleasantly surprised to realize that, after so many years, my color is still 20 Clair. I had given up on Chanel because she has recently failed me on her two way, creme and teint innocence liquid foundation.
Mat lumiere has medium coverage and stays matte on my face, requiring blotting only once in midday (I use Urban Decay's De-slick Mattifying Powder, with compliments from my DH).
My regime:
Cleanse --> SKII Facial Treatment Essence
I love this! I've tried more than 10 products from SKII and none of them are worth my repurchasing except this FTE and another Vitamin C serum). I have been using the FTE since 2004/2005. Thanks to my bestie Dave, who helped me get these from all avenues so I get the best discounts all the time.
--> Peter Thomas Roth Anti-Aging Cellular Eye Repair Gel
I got this from my husband who works in Sephora. I like this. A little goes a long way.
--> Chanel's Pureté Idéale Serum
I got this free from my sister who works in Chanel. Unlike most serum which is translucent-gel-like, this serum is creamy but absorbs fast. It also has a very sweet flora smell.
or --> Chanel Hydramax Active Serum
Again from my sister but I paid for this, a discounted staff price of approximately SGD80 if i remember correctly.
--> Bare Minerals Hydrate & Nourish Moisturizer
I got this again from my husband. This moisturizer is fine and thin, good for my oily/combi skin, day and night.
--> Laura Mercier Foundation Primer or Smashbox Photo Finish Hydrating Primer
Very expensive primers, but they works great! with them, my foundation does not oxidise.
--> Chanel Mat Lumiere Foundation SPF15
"thumbs up!!" Need I say more? haha
--> And, last but not least, MAKE UP FOR EVER HD Microfinish Powder HD Microfinish Powder To Go
This is also a gift from my husband. I use this with a huge kabuki-like face brush and apply using the swirling method. Easy to use and though white, is totally transparent on my face. I only need very little to set my foundation on my entire face and the after effect is a matt and smooth face. I give this a 9/10. I'm pretty sure I will repurchase this. It is by far the best finishing power I have used.
Jeez! That really seems like a lot on my face .. but I'm enjoying every moment of it and looks forward to making up every morning, even when I was running late for work! I love how my face no longer breaks out, except the occasional pimples along my jawline during the time-of-time-month .. and when that happens, this helps, always: Tea-Free Oil from Thursday Plantation (SGD13++ from Guardian Pharmacy)
Mat lumiere has medium coverage and stays matte on my face, requiring blotting only once in midday (I use Urban Decay's De-slick Mattifying Powder, with compliments from my DH).
My regime:
Cleanse --> SKII Facial Treatment Essence
I love this! I've tried more than 10 products from SKII and none of them are worth my repurchasing except this FTE and another Vitamin C serum). I have been using the FTE since 2004/2005. Thanks to my bestie Dave, who helped me get these from all avenues so I get the best discounts all the time.
--> Peter Thomas Roth Anti-Aging Cellular Eye Repair Gel
I got this from my husband who works in Sephora. I like this. A little goes a long way.
--> Chanel's Pureté Idéale Serum
I got this free from my sister who works in Chanel. Unlike most serum which is translucent-gel-like, this serum is creamy but absorbs fast. It also has a very sweet flora smell.
or --> Chanel Hydramax Active Serum
Again from my sister but I paid for this, a discounted staff price of approximately SGD80 if i remember correctly.
--> Bare Minerals Hydrate & Nourish Moisturizer
I got this again from my husband. This moisturizer is fine and thin, good for my oily/combi skin, day and night.
--> Laura Mercier Foundation Primer or Smashbox Photo Finish Hydrating Primer
Very expensive primers, but they works great! with them, my foundation does not oxidise.
--> Chanel Mat Lumiere Foundation SPF15
"thumbs up!!" Need I say more? haha
--> And, last but not least, MAKE UP FOR EVER HD Microfinish Powder HD Microfinish Powder To Go
This is also a gift from my husband. I use this with a huge kabuki-like face brush and apply using the swirling method. Easy to use and though white, is totally transparent on my face. I only need very little to set my foundation on my entire face and the after effect is a matt and smooth face. I give this a 9/10. I'm pretty sure I will repurchase this. It is by far the best finishing power I have used.
Jeez! That really seems like a lot on my face .. but I'm enjoying every moment of it and looks forward to making up every morning, even when I was running late for work! I love how my face no longer breaks out, except the occasional pimples along my jawline during the time-of-time-month .. and when that happens, this helps, always: Tea-Free Oil from Thursday Plantation (SGD13++ from Guardian Pharmacy)
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Should I or Should I not?
Discovery Home & Health is very inspiring. I was often in tears from watching the TV shows and they set me thinking again ..
Should I or Should I Not?
Its going to be the year of the Horse next, one which is good for Vince & I. I definitely cannot afford Dr Loh's private practice anymore. Haven spoken to Irene, I decided not to procrastinate and simply pick up the phone and rang KKH.
It turned out I had a missed appointment on 9 Apr 2012 with Dr Sadhana. Oh well, it was never in my mind to attend. Anyway I am lucky the next appointment is 9 May, 3:15pm. Hope Vince can accompany me, and I hope I can get something out of this trip. I am gearing towards a 2nd IVF, and I will start praying.
Should I or Should I Not?
Its going to be the year of the Horse next, one which is good for Vince & I. I definitely cannot afford Dr Loh's private practice anymore. Haven spoken to Irene, I decided not to procrastinate and simply pick up the phone and rang KKH.
It turned out I had a missed appointment on 9 Apr 2012 with Dr Sadhana. Oh well, it was never in my mind to attend. Anyway I am lucky the next appointment is 9 May, 3:15pm. Hope Vince can accompany me, and I hope I can get something out of this trip. I am gearing towards a 2nd IVF, and I will start praying.
Friday, September 28, 2012
ComfortDelGro Driving Centre
And so, I have been attending driving lessons since June 2012. It was a major step for me. I have had my Basic Theory for more than 10 years but never crossed my mind to go for Finals and actually taking up practical lessons. I'm timid! The mere thought of sitting behind the wheels sends me off to outer space!!
But here I am, 3rd month into driving lessons at CDC. My hubby said I have to go to a proper school or else I will never get pass. With private instructors, there is no commitment and I can drop out anytime. How well he knows me! And me too, though reluctant, have to believe in that. At CDC there is a limit of 18 cancellation counts and anything beyond costs $5 (excl GST)! This ensures I go through the lessons like a good little girl.
I registered myself in April 2012 and my first lesson was on 7 June. One week prior, I got cold feet and tried frantically to cancel the first 2 lessons! Thank God the system did not allow that or I would not have been here today. I have not gotten my license as yet but I now have a test date! How exciting is that!
OK I still aint into driving, still abit fearful, still skeptical. But I had 22 lessons behind me and with another 20 booked and paid for, I'm pretty certain I will not do too badly. Maybe pass at first try? The recommended is 22-25. I would have gone through about 40 by the time I attempt the Practical Driving test on 4 Dec so .. I think I should pass la.
At CDC, I opted for team instructors meaning I pay $5 (excl GST) more each lesson but will only be coached by either A or B instructors (up to a max of 5 --> if my perm A & B happen to be on leave/MC). And though it was made further more expensive for peak hour lessons, I have no regrets! I am an ambassador for CDC! Ahem, I meant for my instructors. I train with the same car every time, and I am so pleased with my instructors. Iving Bay might seem abit terrifying at first but he teaches with passion and is truly patient even though i almost got him crashed once. I began my lessons by hating driving, I am still trying to "like" it .. He knows and though surprised (he said most of his students are excited by each lesson, except me hahahah). he is very encouraging. He is receptive to advice too and he listens. I love the fact that even though I drive like shit on some days, he has never shown any impatience nor anger at me. He is always smiling and soft spoken. With this, I am getting better by the day and I am sure going to miss him when I pass. Oh yes, and I also passed my Finals 49/50 at first try. Yay!
And Vince! Vince is just waiting for me to get my license to get back at me for always criticizing the way he drives!! Its going to be fun!
But here I am, 3rd month into driving lessons at CDC. My hubby said I have to go to a proper school or else I will never get pass. With private instructors, there is no commitment and I can drop out anytime. How well he knows me! And me too, though reluctant, have to believe in that. At CDC there is a limit of 18 cancellation counts and anything beyond costs $5 (excl GST)! This ensures I go through the lessons like a good little girl.
I registered myself in April 2012 and my first lesson was on 7 June. One week prior, I got cold feet and tried frantically to cancel the first 2 lessons! Thank God the system did not allow that or I would not have been here today. I have not gotten my license as yet but I now have a test date! How exciting is that!
OK I still aint into driving, still abit fearful, still skeptical. But I had 22 lessons behind me and with another 20 booked and paid for, I'm pretty certain I will not do too badly. Maybe pass at first try? The recommended is 22-25. I would have gone through about 40 by the time I attempt the Practical Driving test on 4 Dec so .. I think I should pass la.
At CDC, I opted for team instructors meaning I pay $5 (excl GST) more each lesson but will only be coached by either A or B instructors (up to a max of 5 --> if my perm A & B happen to be on leave/MC). And though it was made further more expensive for peak hour lessons, I have no regrets! I am an ambassador for CDC! Ahem, I meant for my instructors. I train with the same car every time, and I am so pleased with my instructors. Iving Bay might seem abit terrifying at first but he teaches with passion and is truly patient even though i almost got him crashed once. I began my lessons by hating driving, I am still trying to "like" it .. He knows and though surprised (he said most of his students are excited by each lesson, except me hahahah). he is very encouraging. He is receptive to advice too and he listens. I love the fact that even though I drive like shit on some days, he has never shown any impatience nor anger at me. He is always smiling and soft spoken. With this, I am getting better by the day and I am sure going to miss him when I pass. Oh yes, and I also passed my Finals 49/50 at first try. Yay!
And Vince! Vince is just waiting for me to get my license to get back at me for always criticizing the way he drives!! Its going to be fun!
Tuesday, April 03, 2012
Do you really have to dampen my spirits before my vacation?
I fail to see how this is my fault.
I have informed my one level up about my intention for 2 weeks leave beginning 26 April. Unfortunately, Kristy's son's health is not in the best condition to undergo a major operation and she had to postpone his surgery which was originally planned for on 29 March. She was to go on leave from 29-March to 20 April. But now, with the surgery rescheduled to 20 Apr, it will clash with my vacation. 2 of us work as a pair and back each other up on our work. My one level up asked Kristy to swap leave period with me. This meant I will have to source and book airtickets and accommodation within a week. I did it last night & applied for leave right away.
This morning, my one level up was mad. How do I know? Oh well, she complaint to Ronald, Kristy, Audrey .. basically the entire team but me. ME! whom she is mad at?? I mean, hello??? I would expect you to come to me. And then I will remind you that you were the one who suggested Kristy asked ME for a swap of leave. I will only accept the blame for not being able to attend CISCO training next Mon/Tues but beyond that? Sorry, No. Kristy was not supposed to be here right now isn't it? So what is the problem exactly? And I'm most upset cos I felt I had so much to compromise yet have my vacation spirits dampened. I do know a vacation of any kind is insignificant compared to a child's life, and that is the reason why I have been juggling between work, son, school work, ECA and trying to book a package.
I miss Johnny, I miss LF.
I have informed my one level up about my intention for 2 weeks leave beginning 26 April. Unfortunately, Kristy's son's health is not in the best condition to undergo a major operation and she had to postpone his surgery which was originally planned for on 29 March. She was to go on leave from 29-March to 20 April. But now, with the surgery rescheduled to 20 Apr, it will clash with my vacation. 2 of us work as a pair and back each other up on our work. My one level up asked Kristy to swap leave period with me. This meant I will have to source and book airtickets and accommodation within a week. I did it last night & applied for leave right away.
This morning, my one level up was mad. How do I know? Oh well, she complaint to Ronald, Kristy, Audrey .. basically the entire team but me. ME! whom she is mad at?? I mean, hello??? I would expect you to come to me. And then I will remind you that you were the one who suggested Kristy asked ME for a swap of leave. I will only accept the blame for not being able to attend CISCO training next Mon/Tues but beyond that? Sorry, No. Kristy was not supposed to be here right now isn't it? So what is the problem exactly? And I'm most upset cos I felt I had so much to compromise yet have my vacation spirits dampened. I do know a vacation of any kind is insignificant compared to a child's life, and that is the reason why I have been juggling between work, son, school work, ECA and trying to book a package.
I miss Johnny, I miss LF.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
"goodbye" to fertility treatments, "hi hi" my new life
Saturday, 17-March-2012
I began spotting on d14 (15-Mar) .. streaks of red, brownish stains. Today is d16 and I told Vince to help me buy a pregnancy test kit. I was still hoping that brownish stain might be an implantation stain.
Benghua was picking me up at 4:30pm to Irene's housewarming. I felt really bloated and uneasy. So before leaving home, I checked again and confirmed my MC "has arrived". I cannot help feeling disappointed even though I know we can continue our current lifestyle if we don't have a 2nd baby but I cannot help feeling sorry because kyros will be without siblings. Vince said God must have his plans and reasons for not blessing us with the baby we so longed for. When he closed one door, he will open another for us.
We've discussed during the start of my 2WW and we decided that enough is enough. If I fail this SO-IUI, we will not attempt another fertility treatment again. Vince agreed I've tried my best. We will not have any regrets later on in life. I rang my mother-in-law and told her about it. She's resigned to this and said too that it is just not fated to be. She asked how much I've spent since I started trying to conceive. wooo .. Dr WK Tan @TMC is just as expensive as Dr Loh. So is Dr Soon. I've also lost count of the amount I've spent on TCM. $20K maybe? My IVF & SO-IUI (inclusive of the approx $4.5K via Medisave) already came up to ~$12K. And I remembered paying between $200-$300 for some trips to Dr WK Tan, and my bill for one of the x-rays was nearly $500. Incredulous. Now, this is a good reason why my savings account has dried up.
So, good bye my Kate. Looks like I'm not fated to have you afterall. After so many years, I'm really saying good bye to you and start living life from now on.
I began spotting on d14 (15-Mar) .. streaks of red, brownish stains. Today is d16 and I told Vince to help me buy a pregnancy test kit. I was still hoping that brownish stain might be an implantation stain.
Benghua was picking me up at 4:30pm to Irene's housewarming. I felt really bloated and uneasy. So before leaving home, I checked again and confirmed my MC "has arrived". I cannot help feeling disappointed even though I know we can continue our current lifestyle if we don't have a 2nd baby but I cannot help feeling sorry because kyros will be without siblings. Vince said God must have his plans and reasons for not blessing us with the baby we so longed for. When he closed one door, he will open another for us.
We've discussed during the start of my 2WW and we decided that enough is enough. If I fail this SO-IUI, we will not attempt another fertility treatment again. Vince agreed I've tried my best. We will not have any regrets later on in life. I rang my mother-in-law and told her about it. She's resigned to this and said too that it is just not fated to be. She asked how much I've spent since I started trying to conceive. wooo .. Dr WK Tan @TMC is just as expensive as Dr Loh. So is Dr Soon. I've also lost count of the amount I've spent on TCM. $20K maybe? My IVF & SO-IUI (inclusive of the approx $4.5K via Medisave) already came up to ~$12K. And I remembered paying between $200-$300 for some trips to Dr WK Tan, and my bill for one of the x-rays was nearly $500. Incredulous. Now, this is a good reason why my savings account has dried up.
So, good bye my Kate. Looks like I'm not fated to have you afterall. After so many years, I'm really saying good bye to you and start living life from now on.
Friday, March 02, 2012
IUI procedure
I'm glad they came up with Novena Medical Centre & Novena Specialist Centre. Jeez! These buildings are so sleek, so new .. unlike most hospitals which are so run down .. TMC is one of them .. so tiny, so dark and old, so badly in need of renovation huh?
We were at CARE @Novena Specialist Centre (opposite Sq2) at 9:30am this morning to have Vince's sperm processed / washed for the IUI this afternoon. The fresher the better so Vince had his masturabated at CARE. Collection was at 12:30pm so we went to our fav Burger King for breakfast (yum yum crossiants!) and drove home because we wanted to send Kyros to sch. The process of “washing” the sperm increases the chances of fertilization and Pre and post concentration of motile sperm is counted. Dr Loh said Vince's were really good and concentrated.
Both Dr Loh & Dr Marianne were out for lunch when I reached at 1pm. It was weird having the collected specimen in my bra haha but thats what I was told to do because the processed sperm had to be maintained at room temperature.
The IUI procedure was over in 3 mins but it was extremely comfortable to have my virigina held open by a cervical cap or whatever it is. Some refer this to like having a pap smear but to me, this is a many times more uncomfy. I was also given 30 caps of utrogestan to take for 15days orally.
Dr Loh also asked us to go home and "add more power" haha .. vince was definitely delighted to know we can have sex as much as before ..
My bill fr Dr Loh came up to $345 today
consultation: $68
IUI $250
Utrogestan $27
$150 for washing of sperm at CARE
timeline
10-Feb: first consultation & collection of purogon $393
12-Feb to 15-Feb: 50iu of purogon
16-Feb: consultation, scan & increase purogon to 75iu $413
16-Feb to 19-Feb: 75iu of purogon
20-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogen to 100iu + 1000mg metfomin/day $415
20-Feb to 22-Feb: 100iu of purogon
23-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 150iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $78
23-Feb to 24-Feb: 150iu of purogon
25-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 175iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $403
27-Feb: consultation, scan and continue purogon at 175iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $400
25-Feb to 28-Feb: 175iu of purogon
29-Feb: consultation, scan, urine test, collection of pregnyl 5000/$128
29-Feb: final jab of 50iu purogen & pregynl 5000 + 150mg metfomin
02-Mar: IUI $345
We were at CARE @Novena Specialist Centre (opposite Sq2) at 9:30am this morning to have Vince's sperm processed / washed for the IUI this afternoon. The fresher the better so Vince had his masturabated at CARE. Collection was at 12:30pm so we went to our fav Burger King for breakfast (yum yum crossiants!) and drove home because we wanted to send Kyros to sch. The process of “washing” the sperm increases the chances of fertilization and Pre and post concentration of motile sperm is counted. Dr Loh said Vince's were really good and concentrated.
Both Dr Loh & Dr Marianne were out for lunch when I reached at 1pm. It was weird having the collected specimen in my bra haha but thats what I was told to do because the processed sperm had to be maintained at room temperature.
The IUI procedure was over in 3 mins but it was extremely comfortable to have my virigina held open by a cervical cap or whatever it is. Some refer this to like having a pap smear but to me, this is a many times more uncomfy. I was also given 30 caps of utrogestan to take for 15days orally.
Dr Loh also asked us to go home and "add more power" haha .. vince was definitely delighted to know we can have sex as much as before ..
My bill fr Dr Loh came up to $345 today
consultation: $68
IUI $250
Utrogestan $27
$150 for washing of sperm at CARE
timeline
10-Feb: first consultation & collection of purogon $393
12-Feb to 15-Feb: 50iu of purogon
16-Feb: consultation, scan & increase purogon to 75iu $413
16-Feb to 19-Feb: 75iu of purogon
20-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogen to 100iu + 1000mg metfomin/day $415
20-Feb to 22-Feb: 100iu of purogon
23-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 150iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $78
23-Feb to 24-Feb: 150iu of purogon
25-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 175iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $403
27-Feb: consultation, scan and continue purogon at 175iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $400
25-Feb to 28-Feb: 175iu of purogon
29-Feb: consultation, scan, urine test, collection of pregnyl 5000/$128
29-Feb: final jab of 50iu purogen & pregynl 5000 + 150mg metfomin
02-Mar: IUI $345
Thursday, March 01, 2012
yay! i'm ready!
The clinic was not so busy today so I opted to consult Dr Loh. Not too bad. My appointment was at 4:30pm, I saw him at 5:10pm. 2 of my follicles were around 16mm avg and a 3rd slightly smaller. I had a urine test done but it showed I am not ovulating. This meant I cannot have my IUI carried out tomorrow, and Dr Loh arranged for me to have the IUI on Friday 1:00pm instead.
The downside of seeing him at his clinic is, there is no nurses along the "production line". He had to do most things himself and I guess he has not gotten used to the idea of an ignorant patient. Its only today that I actually appreciated the well-trained-and-knowledgeable nurses at KKH IVF centre. I still hated the queue though.
I was given this form which I had to ring CARE @Novena Specialist Centre and make an appointment for my husband to go down on Friday 9am to retrieve & to have his sperms processed. Then we are to send them directly to Dr Loh's clinic. Dr Loh said either himself or Dr Marianne will perform the IUI for me. I hope its going to be Dr Loh .. perhaps I should make a special request huh ..
timeline
10-Feb: first consultation & collection of purogon $393
12-Feb to 15-Feb: 50iu of purogon
16-Feb: consultation, scan & increase purogon to 75iu $413
16-Feb to 19-Feb: 75iu of purogon
20-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogen to 100iu + 1000mg metfomin/day $415
20-Feb to 22-Feb: 100iu of purogon
23-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 150iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $78
23-Feb to 24-Feb: 150iu of purogon
25-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 175iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $403
27-Feb: consultation, scan and continue purogon at 175iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $400
25-Feb to 28-Feb: 175iu of purogon
29-Feb: consultation, scan, urine test, collection of pregnyl 5000/$128
29-Feb: final jab of 50iu purogen & pregynl 5000 + 150mg metfomin
furthest left navy box containing my purogon pen
1 syringe & 2 needles (Green for mixing and Orange for jabbing)
Before handling, always ensure hands are washed
Purogen pen with balance 50iu
Pregnyl 5000 comes in 2 individual vials which I had to mix the two together
The orange needle is now attached ~
The downside of seeing him at his clinic is, there is no nurses along the "production line". He had to do most things himself and I guess he has not gotten used to the idea of an ignorant patient. Its only today that I actually appreciated the well-trained-and-knowledgeable nurses at KKH IVF centre. I still hated the queue though.
I was given this form which I had to ring CARE @Novena Specialist Centre and make an appointment for my husband to go down on Friday 9am to retrieve & to have his sperms processed. Then we are to send them directly to Dr Loh's clinic. Dr Loh said either himself or Dr Marianne will perform the IUI for me. I hope its going to be Dr Loh .. perhaps I should make a special request huh ..
timeline
10-Feb: first consultation & collection of purogon $393
12-Feb to 15-Feb: 50iu of purogon
16-Feb: consultation, scan & increase purogon to 75iu $413
16-Feb to 19-Feb: 75iu of purogon
20-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogen to 100iu + 1000mg metfomin/day $415
20-Feb to 22-Feb: 100iu of purogon
23-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 150iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $78
23-Feb to 24-Feb: 150iu of purogon
25-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 175iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $403
27-Feb: consultation, scan and continue purogon at 175iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $400
25-Feb to 28-Feb: 175iu of purogon
29-Feb: consultation, scan, urine test, collection of pregnyl 5000/$128
29-Feb: final jab of 50iu purogen & pregynl 5000 + 150mg metfomin
furthest left navy box containing my purogon pen
1 syringe & 2 needles (Green for mixing and Orange for jabbing)
Before handling, always ensure hands are washed
Purogen pen with balance 50iu
Pregnyl 5000 comes in 2 individual vials which I had to mix the two together
Drawing the liquid out with the thick green needle
See the liquid in the syringe? I'm now putting this into the vial to mix with the white powder which will dissolve immediately once it comes into contact with the liquid.
OK my hubby is really lousy at photo taking. Here I am removing the green needle with a swab and attaching the orange needle for injection.
The orange needle is now attached ~
To ensure there are no bubbles in the syringe, I hold the syringe upwards and pushed the syringe stopper till I see 1-2 drops of liquid oozing out of the needle.
Hubby didnt dare administer the jab for me & I am afraid it will be painful to jab into my thigh muscle so Vince helped me ice the area .. and indeed there was no pain though the needle was a tad hard to push in .. and I reckon will be painful if he had not iced the area for me prior. And I also ensured the area is cleaned with alcohol swab after icing, before the jab.
aftermath ~
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
purogon @175iu
timeline
10-Feb: first consultation & collection of purogon $393
12-Feb to 15-Feb: 50iu of purogon
16-Feb: consultation, scan & increase purogon to 75iu $413
16-Feb to 19-Feb: 75iu of purogon
20-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogen to 100iu + 1000mg metfomin/day $415
20-Feb to 22-Feb: 100iu of purogon
23-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 150iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $78
23-Feb to 24-Feb: 150iu of purogon
25-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 175iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $403
27-Feb: consultation, scan and continue purogon at 175iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $400
25-Feb to 28-Feb: 175iu of purogon
10-Feb: first consultation & collection of purogon $393
12-Feb to 15-Feb: 50iu of purogon
16-Feb: consultation, scan & increase purogon to 75iu $413
16-Feb to 19-Feb: 75iu of purogon
20-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogen to 100iu + 1000mg metfomin/day $415
20-Feb to 22-Feb: 100iu of purogon
23-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 150iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $78
23-Feb to 24-Feb: 150iu of purogon
25-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 175iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $403
27-Feb: consultation, scan and continue purogon at 175iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $400
25-Feb to 28-Feb: 175iu of purogon
Friday, February 24, 2012
more purogon ~ *ouch*
its time to stop being lazy and start documenting my first SO-IUI just like what I did when I went through IVF last year.
timeline
10-Feb: first consultation & collection of purogon $393
12-Feb to 15-Feb: 50iu of purogon
16-Feb: consultation, scan & increase purogon to 75iu $413
16-Feb to 19-Feb: 75iu of purogon
20-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogen to 100iu + 1000mg metfomin/day $415
20-Feb to 22-Feb: 100iu of purogon
23-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 150iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $78
23-Feb to 24-Feb: 150iu of purogon
I have alot of follicles in each of my ovaries yet none of them are big enough. We need them to be 17mm. And Dr Loh looked at me and said: chum chum, this is going to be expensive. My lining is ready though. Well, we have come this far, we just have to increase instead of giving up and letting those monies I have spent right? I hope to keep the total below $2K but I don't think this is possible anymore .. 300iu of purogen is costing me $393. Ouch. And I'm seeing him again on Sat. Keeping my fingers crossed.
timeline
10-Feb: first consultation & collection of purogon $393
12-Feb to 15-Feb: 50iu of purogon
16-Feb: consultation, scan & increase purogon to 75iu $413
16-Feb to 19-Feb: 75iu of purogon
20-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogen to 100iu + 1000mg metfomin/day $415
20-Feb to 22-Feb: 100iu of purogon
23-Feb: consultation, scan and increase purogon to 150iu + 150mg of metfomin/day $78
23-Feb to 24-Feb: 150iu of purogon
I have alot of follicles in each of my ovaries yet none of them are big enough. We need them to be 17mm. And Dr Loh looked at me and said: chum chum, this is going to be expensive. My lining is ready though. Well, we have come this far, we just have to increase instead of giving up and letting those monies I have spent right? I hope to keep the total below $2K but I don't think this is possible anymore .. 300iu of purogen is costing me $393. Ouch. And I'm seeing him again on Sat. Keeping my fingers crossed.
Friday, February 10, 2012
Back to TMC~
My last menses was on 20 Dec 2011. After nearly 2 mths, it came again today. I was elated! Happy beyond words and went down unannounced to consult Dr Loh. Clomid's not ideal because it wouldnt give me the lining thickness SO-IUI needs. So I agreed to purogon. 50units/night for 5 nights beginning 12 Feb 2012. I will see Dr Loh again next Thursday.
Friday, November 18, 2011
Skincare, Makeup FOC
I've been working for nearly 20 years and I buy all the personal stuff that I own, be it skincare, makeup, bags, shoes, apparels, etc etc .. I've lavished my mom & my sisters but I hardly have people buying me gifts~ hence, imagine my delight, excitement & pleasure at the frequent skincare/makeup I get every other day!!
Ok there were more than these but I was too tired from work on those nights to remember to pic them:
Of this lot, I love Soap & Glory's "Wish Upon A Jar" most! It comes in a cool silver globe and the rich collagen smells heavenly! I just love putting it on every time. And because it came to me FOC, I am really "generous" everytime I use this, taking a larger-than-neccessary" amount and use my palm to soothe it over my entire face, neck and elbow. Its been a week and while I'm not certain if it delivers what it claims, I do find my hands feeling extremely smooth ever since I started on this! I have a very bad habit of washing my hands frequently so they are really dry. After a week of this, my hands are now smooth even after constant washing throughout the day. Vince was unconvinced but had to agree to my verdict after I applied some on his own hands .. further, I have oily & sensitive skin but I've not had any breakouts at all! My face was not much oilier even if I wear this under my makeup. Verdict: If you have about SGD60 to spare, I will encourage you to give this a try. Me? I am going to continue with this.. at least until I find another that surpass this.
I took this off Soap&Glory's www:
21 Day Collagen Overhaul Cream boosts moisture levels, smoothes fine lines and wrinkles, brightens tired skin and hides imperfections (with TRIPLE-ACTION YOUTHFAKE™ Diamond spheres specifically designed to disguise dull, exhausted and aging skin). It’s got antioxidants,
shea butter and quite possibly the most potent mix of clinically proven anti-wrinkle SUPERPEPTIDES™, oxygen boosters, puffiness reducers, pigmentation, large pore and fine-line disguisers ever witnessed… and in 21 days flat can take a tired face and make it look FRESH!
Another night, I got this on my vanity top. Vince had gone to his mum's to pick up Kyros .. what a pleasant surprise! You should have seen my face hahahah ..
OK this was just fine .. not exactly my cup of tea as I am not a big fan of in-house brands .. this pouch contains mostly Sephora makeup ..
And this came in 2 days back .. a lancome pouch that contains samples of their Maqui whitening foundation, BB eye base, etc ..
Hmm.. I've never been a fan of Lancome so I'm most likely to pass this on to my sis ~
And today, I got this!
Ever since I labelled "Wish Upon a Jar" as my HG, I have been keeping a lookout for their other products and this explained my delight when I opened the bag.
And the hightlight of the day is the bottle on the top left hand corner, Soap & Glory's "Hocus Focus" Highlighting Lotion. I cant wait to try this out! And I have to mention that the body polish & body wash smells just like my fav "Wish Upon a Jar"! This sounds abit complicated to use though ~
Oh well, there were others like a GAP overnight bag, a dr hauschka tote, and a whole bunch of fragrance vials .. I wonder what Vince will bring back tomorrow ~ haha ..
Ok there were more than these but I was too tired from work on those nights to remember to pic them:
Of this lot, I love Soap & Glory's "Wish Upon A Jar" most! It comes in a cool silver globe and the rich collagen smells heavenly! I just love putting it on every time. And because it came to me FOC, I am really "generous" everytime I use this, taking a larger-than-neccessary" amount and use my palm to soothe it over my entire face, neck and elbow. Its been a week and while I'm not certain if it delivers what it claims, I do find my hands feeling extremely smooth ever since I started on this! I have a very bad habit of washing my hands frequently so they are really dry. After a week of this, my hands are now smooth even after constant washing throughout the day. Vince was unconvinced but had to agree to my verdict after I applied some on his own hands .. further, I have oily & sensitive skin but I've not had any breakouts at all! My face was not much oilier even if I wear this under my makeup. Verdict: If you have about SGD60 to spare, I will encourage you to give this a try. Me? I am going to continue with this.. at least until I find another that surpass this.
I took this off Soap&Glory's www:
21 Day Collagen Overhaul Cream boosts moisture levels, smoothes fine lines and wrinkles, brightens tired skin and hides imperfections (with TRIPLE-ACTION YOUTHFAKE™ Diamond spheres specifically designed to disguise dull, exhausted and aging skin). It’s got antioxidants,
shea butter and quite possibly the most potent mix of clinically proven anti-wrinkle SUPERPEPTIDES™, oxygen boosters, puffiness reducers, pigmentation, large pore and fine-line disguisers ever witnessed… and in 21 days flat can take a tired face and make it look FRESH!
Another night, I got this on my vanity top. Vince had gone to his mum's to pick up Kyros .. what a pleasant surprise! You should have seen my face hahahah ..
OK this was just fine .. not exactly my cup of tea as I am not a big fan of in-house brands .. this pouch contains mostly Sephora makeup ..
Hmm.. I've never been a fan of Lancome so I'm most likely to pass this on to my sis ~
And today, I got this!
Ever since I labelled "Wish Upon a Jar" as my HG, I have been keeping a lookout for their other products and this explained my delight when I opened the bag.
What is Soap & Glory Hocus Focus Lotion?
A BLAST OF BRILLIANCE FOR TIRED SKIN! An INSTANT visual flaw-softening lotion with long-wearing LIGHTSCRAMBLE™ lumispheres. Contains a delicate hint of our popular Rose & Bergamot fragrance.
How do you dew it?
PLAY DOWN THE FLAW!
Use Hocus Focus alone as a cheekbone highlighter, mixed with moisturiser as a gorgeous skin brightener, or blend 2-3 pumps into your foundation (for a youthful, dewy, luminous look).
Can be used in conjunction with Catch a Wrinkle in Time daily moisturiser.
USE TO DIFFUSE:
- Large pores
- Wrinkles
- Uneven pigmentation
- Suitable for all skin types
A BLAST OF BRILLIANCE FOR TIRED SKIN! An INSTANT visual flaw-softening lotion with long-wearing LIGHTSCRAMBLE™ lumispheres. Contains a delicate hint of our popular Rose & Bergamot fragrance.
How do you dew it?
PLAY DOWN THE FLAW!
Use Hocus Focus alone as a cheekbone highlighter, mixed with moisturiser as a gorgeous skin brightener, or blend 2-3 pumps into your foundation (for a youthful, dewy, luminous look).
Can be used in conjunction with Catch a Wrinkle in Time daily moisturiser.
USE TO DIFFUSE:
- Large pores
- Wrinkles
- Uneven pigmentation
- Suitable for all skin types
Oh well, there were others like a GAP overnight bag, a dr hauschka tote, and a whole bunch of fragrance vials .. I wonder what Vince will bring back tomorrow ~ haha ..
Sunday, October 30, 2011
SO-IUI
29 October 2011
Appointment with Dr SF Loh
KKH, 10:05am
As usual, we were early. I registered at 9:45am but got to see Dr Loh only at 12:30pm. My enthusiasm at seeing him plummented to rock bottom. I was down with bad sore throat, headache, flu and cough since Tues, my eyes were dry and I was feeling exhausted. Irene had managed to squeeze in an appointment to see Dr Loh as well but hers was at 12:45pm. I was hoping she'll be earlier and we can catch up like we always do but Bryson was so so slow and I only saw them after my consultation.
There were a lot of patients today, an overflow because Dr Loh was away for 2-3 weeks on a conference. And long were the consultations today! I guess most of his patients were now very concerned with his leaving KKH end of 2011.
I had alot of respect for Dr Loh. While he might seem cold and sarcastic, nonchalant to some, I find his patience remarkable. The first ER for any day is 7:30am, and given the number of patients he sees a day, the nurse said his last patient usually leaves after 6 in the evenings, and even later on Saturdays, though it is supposedly a half-day consultation. And that is provided he do not get called away on emergencies such as deliveries .. plus, given the number of pregnant patients he has, I cannot start to imagine his weekends .. He works such long hours. He is at the hospital early and leaves late. I say, his wife is truly one remarkable women. I was told his elder daughter is studying in Australia and his younger in JC.
My menses came on 27-Oct, days after I stopped duphaston. I wanted to have my FET done as soon as possible but Dr Loh advised against. Apparently, I needed a month break in between for my body to purge out all the drugs that I had taken these past few weeks. That meant we can only carry that out after my Dec MC. I am PCO and have irregular MC, so Dr Loh prescribed some med to induce my Dec MC. If all goes well, my FET will be carried out before Christmas.
ProgyNOVA 2mg - 2 tablets every morning for 5 days (from D3 of MC) then 3 tablets every morning for the next 10 days.
Norethisterone 5mg - 2 tablets 2 times daily for 2 weeks (from 12-Nov-2011)
Asprin 1000mg - 1 tablet every morning (once Dec MC starts)
Total cost: $29.44
During ET, Dr Loh said I do not actually require IVF. He said Vince sperm count is at a very healthy 145million and his sperms are very good swimmers. I asked and he confirms I can skip 2nd cycle of IVF and instead, go for SO-IUI (Superovulation & intrauterine Insemination).
http://www.kkh.com.sg/Services/Women/KKIVFCentre/Pages/SOIUI.aspx.
Dr Loh will start seeing patients at TMC from 2 January 2012. Where the IVF at KKH is between $10-11K, TMC is charging $15-21K. No government subsidy will be given to private hospitals and maximum Medisave deductions is $5K for 2nd cycle. This means I have to fork out at least $10K in cash should I go for 2nd IVF cycle. I only paid $6K medisave & slightly over $1K in cash for my 1st cycle. Thus, I am really happy to know I can explore other options apart from IVF.
Besides cost, leave is also a concern. My boss has bruntantly said she will not allow me any more hospitalisation nor medical leaves and that I am not allowed to go for 2nd cycle. Then she added at least until after Dec 2011. While I am most used to her being unconcerned about our welfare, I am most appalled at her insensitivity during this whole process. She has never offered a word of concern and is only interested to know when I can return to work. I have always given my best at work and has been with the company for more than 4 years. I have record low MC and is an experienced & responsible PM, even I said so myself. Customers were happy with me and positive feedbacks were consistent all these years. What else is she expecting from me? I find that I dont understand her at all. And I miss my ex-male bosses. They were sympathetic and cares about me. They trust and believe in me.
Once I thought I could work till I retire in TI. Now, my opinions have changed and I will no longer reject job opportunities. All these years, I've had agencies ringing me for similiar posts else where and I have never gone for them. I guess I should start being positive and give them a try. Who knows? I might be just as lucky as Sham? Sham's last day with TI was on 28-Oct, the day I returned from my leaves. He has found himself another job as VP of Strategic Accounts with an annual income of over $200K.
So much about my unhappiness. Anyway, I intended to make full use of this month and do all the things that I cannot do once I had my FET done. I am going for facial, body massage, foot reflexology, laser off the milia seeds & moles on my face etc etc .. Haha ..
And since I am no longer pregnant, I decided I could use a little break and decided to join my mom, mil and aunts for a 4D trip to Penang (4-7 Nov). This is organized by a friend of my mom/aunts & his trips are always so fun. Whatsmore, its only $260 for adult and $178 for Kyros. Vince will begin his new job on 1 Nov so he stays in Sg taking care of all the rest. Oh yes, his 40year old elder brother needs to be taken care of! Rotten guy.
Appointment with Dr SF Loh
KKH, 10:05am
As usual, we were early. I registered at 9:45am but got to see Dr Loh only at 12:30pm. My enthusiasm at seeing him plummented to rock bottom. I was down with bad sore throat, headache, flu and cough since Tues, my eyes were dry and I was feeling exhausted. Irene had managed to squeeze in an appointment to see Dr Loh as well but hers was at 12:45pm. I was hoping she'll be earlier and we can catch up like we always do but Bryson was so so slow and I only saw them after my consultation.
There were a lot of patients today, an overflow because Dr Loh was away for 2-3 weeks on a conference. And long were the consultations today! I guess most of his patients were now very concerned with his leaving KKH end of 2011.
I had alot of respect for Dr Loh. While he might seem cold and sarcastic, nonchalant to some, I find his patience remarkable. The first ER for any day is 7:30am, and given the number of patients he sees a day, the nurse said his last patient usually leaves after 6 in the evenings, and even later on Saturdays, though it is supposedly a half-day consultation. And that is provided he do not get called away on emergencies such as deliveries .. plus, given the number of pregnant patients he has, I cannot start to imagine his weekends .. He works such long hours. He is at the hospital early and leaves late. I say, his wife is truly one remarkable women. I was told his elder daughter is studying in Australia and his younger in JC.
My menses came on 27-Oct, days after I stopped duphaston. I wanted to have my FET done as soon as possible but Dr Loh advised against. Apparently, I needed a month break in between for my body to purge out all the drugs that I had taken these past few weeks. That meant we can only carry that out after my Dec MC. I am PCO and have irregular MC, so Dr Loh prescribed some med to induce my Dec MC. If all goes well, my FET will be carried out before Christmas.
ProgyNOVA 2mg - 2 tablets every morning for 5 days (from D3 of MC) then 3 tablets every morning for the next 10 days.
Norethisterone 5mg - 2 tablets 2 times daily for 2 weeks (from 12-Nov-2011)
Asprin 1000mg - 1 tablet every morning (once Dec MC starts)
Total cost: $29.44
During ET, Dr Loh said I do not actually require IVF. He said Vince sperm count is at a very healthy 145million and his sperms are very good swimmers. I asked and he confirms I can skip 2nd cycle of IVF and instead, go for SO-IUI (Superovulation & intrauterine Insemination).
http://www.kkh.com.sg/Services/Women/KKIVFCentre/Pages/SOIUI.aspx.
Dr Loh will start seeing patients at TMC from 2 January 2012. Where the IVF at KKH is between $10-11K, TMC is charging $15-21K. No government subsidy will be given to private hospitals and maximum Medisave deductions is $5K for 2nd cycle. This means I have to fork out at least $10K in cash should I go for 2nd IVF cycle. I only paid $6K medisave & slightly over $1K in cash for my 1st cycle. Thus, I am really happy to know I can explore other options apart from IVF.
Besides cost, leave is also a concern. My boss has bruntantly said she will not allow me any more hospitalisation nor medical leaves and that I am not allowed to go for 2nd cycle. Then she added at least until after Dec 2011. While I am most used to her being unconcerned about our welfare, I am most appalled at her insensitivity during this whole process. She has never offered a word of concern and is only interested to know when I can return to work. I have always given my best at work and has been with the company for more than 4 years. I have record low MC and is an experienced & responsible PM, even I said so myself. Customers were happy with me and positive feedbacks were consistent all these years. What else is she expecting from me? I find that I dont understand her at all. And I miss my ex-male bosses. They were sympathetic and cares about me. They trust and believe in me.
Once I thought I could work till I retire in TI. Now, my opinions have changed and I will no longer reject job opportunities. All these years, I've had agencies ringing me for similiar posts else where and I have never gone for them. I guess I should start being positive and give them a try. Who knows? I might be just as lucky as Sham? Sham's last day with TI was on 28-Oct, the day I returned from my leaves. He has found himself another job as VP of Strategic Accounts with an annual income of over $200K.
So much about my unhappiness. Anyway, I intended to make full use of this month and do all the things that I cannot do once I had my FET done. I am going for facial, body massage, foot reflexology, laser off the milia seeds & moles on my face etc etc .. Haha ..
And since I am no longer pregnant, I decided I could use a little break and decided to join my mom, mil and aunts for a 4D trip to Penang (4-7 Nov). This is organized by a friend of my mom/aunts & his trips are always so fun. Whatsmore, its only $260 for adult and $178 for Kyros. Vince will begin his new job on 1 Nov so he stays in Sg taking care of all the rest. Oh yes, his 40year old elder brother needs to be taken care of! Rotten guy.
Monday, October 24, 2011
i'm no longer pregnant
And it simply meant I am not pregnant. I kept thinking Monday is 25 Oct and it was only before stepping out of home that I realised today is only 24 Oct, not 25th. But I'm at D17 anyway and went ahead to have my hCG blood test.
Surprisingly, it wasn't that packed at the IVF centre. Its a Monday! Where's everyone?? My schedule said to reach between 7:30am to 10:00am and I stepped in at 9:30am. I was happy to find the drop-off box outside consultation room1 empty saved for mine. It was the quickest visit ever and I was out of the clinic in 20mins all in all. Results will be out in the afternoon and I was told to expect a call between 1-4pm.
Irene was so anxious and at barely 1pm, urged me to ring IVF centre for results, which I did at 2:30pm. I was equally anxious and more nervous than Irene actually. But in my heart, I was already mentally prepared for a negative result so I will not be overly sad when reality sets in. And the nurse said: "I'm sorry mdm but you are not pregnant". My beta reading was lower than 1.2 ~ At 3-4 weeks, it was supposed to be in excess of 100..
I am taking it quite well actually. Abit sad but well, I was already prepared for the worst. Vince is more affected I guess .. he sat on the couch and was in a daze. Dont be sad darling. We still have 2 frozen embryos remember? As of now, we can only hope & pray both survive the thaw and will still of good grades for transfer. I wished I had more follicles to go for blastocyst ~ sigh ..
And my other problem? Dr Loh will be leaving KKH for TMC end of 2011. This meant I can only have my IVF at TMC. I mean, if I'm going for a 2nd cycle, I have to go for the best gynae right? I decided long ago I'm going to follow him to TMC. However, TMC is a private hospital and I will not enjoy government subsidy. While I paid just about S$1K for our first cycle, the 2nd (if any) at TMC is going to bleed me of about $6K in cash ($11K - $5K medisave). Perhaps I can also consider skipping FET and start my 2nd cycle at KKH while Dr Loh is still here? I have no idea .. I'll be seeing him this Saturday morning and will discuss what my options are then.
I remembered Dr Loh telling me that I do not actually need to go for IVF, given that Vince's sperm are strong swimmers. No one gave us any reports and I must remember to ask him for his sperm count this Sat. I must also remember to ask him about IUI .. The waiting time for consultation is at least 2 hrs and by then, I would usually be "brain-dead". This time round, the smarter me noted all that I needed to ask on my mobile. Vince expressed his concern and said he preferred that I do not go for 2nd round of IVF. He said he felt heart pain of the procedures I had to go through and he didn't want me to suffer anymore, but I really would like another baby ~! Its sweet of him to love me so much but its something I have to do. The last I need is to look back at 40 and regret not doing enough ~ Actually, having gone through the entire procedure, IVF isn't that terrifying. If I had known earlier, I would have gladly gone for it in May and not rescheduled all the way to Sept. Time and tide waits for no man, and its too late for regrets ~
I'm so blessed to have friends who kept track of my progress and texted me at the appropriate times offering support. While I enjoyed my 2WW at home, I'm equally happy to go back to work on 27 Oct.
Surprisingly, it wasn't that packed at the IVF centre. Its a Monday! Where's everyone?? My schedule said to reach between 7:30am to 10:00am and I stepped in at 9:30am. I was happy to find the drop-off box outside consultation room1 empty saved for mine. It was the quickest visit ever and I was out of the clinic in 20mins all in all. Results will be out in the afternoon and I was told to expect a call between 1-4pm.
Irene was so anxious and at barely 1pm, urged me to ring IVF centre for results, which I did at 2:30pm. I was equally anxious and more nervous than Irene actually. But in my heart, I was already mentally prepared for a negative result so I will not be overly sad when reality sets in. And the nurse said: "I'm sorry mdm but you are not pregnant". My beta reading was lower than 1.2 ~ At 3-4 weeks, it was supposed to be in excess of 100..
I am taking it quite well actually. Abit sad but well, I was already prepared for the worst. Vince is more affected I guess .. he sat on the couch and was in a daze. Dont be sad darling. We still have 2 frozen embryos remember? As of now, we can only hope & pray both survive the thaw and will still of good grades for transfer. I wished I had more follicles to go for blastocyst ~ sigh ..
And my other problem? Dr Loh will be leaving KKH for TMC end of 2011. This meant I can only have my IVF at TMC. I mean, if I'm going for a 2nd cycle, I have to go for the best gynae right? I decided long ago I'm going to follow him to TMC. However, TMC is a private hospital and I will not enjoy government subsidy. While I paid just about S$1K for our first cycle, the 2nd (if any) at TMC is going to bleed me of about $6K in cash ($11K - $5K medisave). Perhaps I can also consider skipping FET and start my 2nd cycle at KKH while Dr Loh is still here? I have no idea .. I'll be seeing him this Saturday morning and will discuss what my options are then.
I remembered Dr Loh telling me that I do not actually need to go for IVF, given that Vince's sperm are strong swimmers. No one gave us any reports and I must remember to ask him for his sperm count this Sat. I must also remember to ask him about IUI .. The waiting time for consultation is at least 2 hrs and by then, I would usually be "brain-dead". This time round, the smarter me noted all that I needed to ask on my mobile. Vince expressed his concern and said he preferred that I do not go for 2nd round of IVF. He said he felt heart pain of the procedures I had to go through and he didn't want me to suffer anymore, but I really would like another baby ~! Its sweet of him to love me so much but its something I have to do. The last I need is to look back at 40 and regret not doing enough ~ Actually, having gone through the entire procedure, IVF isn't that terrifying. If I had known earlier, I would have gladly gone for it in May and not rescheduled all the way to Sept. Time and tide waits for no man, and its too late for regrets ~
I'm so blessed to have friends who kept track of my progress and texted me at the appropriate times offering support. While I enjoyed my 2WW at home, I'm equally happy to go back to work on 27 Oct.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
a torturous 2WW ~
Its D14 and I tested using home pregnancy kit this morning. Perhaps I shouldn't have. It was BFN (Big Fat Negative).
And I wondered if this meant I have failed my fresh cycle ~ .. I was upset & told Irene I'm not going to test anymore till the hCG on 25 Oct.
My usual PMS includes headache before, during and after my MC (menstration cycle). I wondered if its coming cause I started having headache in the afternoon. Its afterall D14 huh? I'm keeping my fingers crossed since hCG is much more accurate than hpt.
My friend's dad passed away last Sunday and none of our ex-classmates could make it. I contemplated, asked around and was advised against. I've known her since we were 14 and since she knows I am in the most critical period of my IVF procedure, I trust she would understand why I couldnt attend her dad's wake. Nonetheless, I sent Vince. Vince was from a secondary school in AMK and used to hang around the old AMK interchange, thus he knows Jenny's dad who works there. He was a heavy smoker and had died of TB. R.I.P uncle ~
My usual PMS includes headache before, during and after my MC (menstration cycle). I wondered if its coming cause I started having headache in the afternoon. Its afterall D14 huh? I'm keeping my fingers crossed since hCG is much more accurate than hpt.
My friend's dad passed away last Sunday and none of our ex-classmates could make it. I contemplated, asked around and was advised against. I've known her since we were 14 and since she knows I am in the most critical period of my IVF procedure, I trust she would understand why I couldnt attend her dad's wake. Nonetheless, I sent Vince. Vince was from a secondary school in AMK and used to hang around the old AMK interchange, thus he knows Jenny's dad who works there. He was a heavy smoker and had died of TB. R.I.P uncle ~
Monday, October 10, 2011
i'm pregnant!
erm, I meant I'm technically "pregnant" because there are two little embryos growing inside me at this moment.
My ET was scheduled at 8:30am and as usual, we were early by abt 15mins. I had drank about a litre of water since I woke up and it was sheer torture sitting there holding my bladder while waiting for my turn. I was then told, that we always tend to drink too much. In fact, 2 - 3 glasses of water will be sufficient! I heaved a sign of relief and went to the toilet to release half my bladder which is literally at the verge of bursting. Then i sat down and waaaaaaaaaaaaaited impatiently. In no time, my bladder was full once again .. sigh .. any women who has gone for ultra scan will be able to tell you how disgusting the feeling is. It was tortuours! I rather take 20 self-administered Lurin or gonal-f than one of this scans.
I was finally called to the ET room at 5mins to 9am. The embryo room was just next to the ET room. Soon, the embryologist arrive. Spouses were allowed and Vince sat at a chair next to mine. Mine was a huge incliner with stirrups and attached with scanning machines, monitor and all. I thought it would be my turn soon but Dr Loh was so slow in coming and my bladder was again full and though the staff nurse&embryologist tried to make me more comfortable by lying me down instead of sitting, it just wasn't helping and after about 10mins, I ran to the toilet despite the shock on their faces .. erm, I seriously do not think I was the first to go to the toilet while waiting on the ET chair? anyway, I do want the procedure to end fast, and I do know they cannot scan unless my bladder is full. I was also told that a full bladder pushes the womb downwards and will be much easier for ET. So, with that inflicted into my brain, I controlled myself and let go of just a tiny bit out of my bladder. I din't know that was possible until today!
When I went back to the ET room, I was still feeling urgent. But since I had waited for about 15mins, I thought my dear Dr Loh would soon arrive .. oh yes he did, after 20mins of wait in all. By then I was delirious & my mind was practically empty. And the cool man walked in with a cup of coffee. I exclaimed:" thank god, you are finally here! what!! i'm dying! 你还喝咖啡!".. He only smile and tell me to relax .. hur? You try that, Mr Cool Man.
And then he told me:
6 eggs retrieved
5 ready & fertilized
3 were usable, grade 3
1 unusable
I grumbled and complaint to Dr Loh that I was so upset so disappointed I only ER 6 eggs! Having sufferred PCO all my life, its time it does something for me isnt it? Dr Loh laughed and said cuz IVF dr scared I will get OHSS la, blah blah blah, so only give me lowest dosage of gonal-f, ie 150iu .. I said I felt well throughout the entire process, they should have more guts than this.
And the million dollar question:
me: "so dr, what happens if I fail this cycle?"
dr: "try again?"
me: "huh? try another cycle?!! NO WAY! No way am I going to put myself through this process again!"
dr: "aiya don think so much la, you know, most of my patients who have already had one kid succeed at fresh cycle. You will also la, who knows you might get twins!"
me: "better be the case cuz thawed embryo might not survive ~"
dr: "erm .. yes . "
I was asked if I wanted to transfer 2 or 3 embryos. Dr Loh said its up to me? And I was surprised cuz under govt subsidy, patients are only allowed 2 embryos each time. I asked his opinion and he said 2. And I agreed. At that moment, I didnt know I had made a very important decision!
With my legs in stirrups, and all covered up except where the embryos were to be transferred in, the staff nurse placed the ultrascan on my stomach & after all verificatison is done, Dr Loh began transferring the embryos in. It was embrassing having a male sitting right between your legs .. well, I was still embrassed and I covered my face with my shawl throughout .. silly me. Nonetheless, the procedure went pretty well and was over in less than 10mins. The first thing I did thereafter was to ruuuuuuuuun to the toilet.
While waiting outside the ET room for my report, I saw a frantic lady along the corridor. The moment we had eye contact, she asked if I was done? and that she was still waiting for her turn. I said she could go release some of her bladder but she said she is the sort who will release it all and would not be able to hold back .. She got a shock when she heard had sat in the ET room for 20mins while waiting for D-Man!
After collecting the medicine from the pharmacy, Vince sent me to my mom-in-law's place to rest while he goes to work. Rest I did. I napped from 11 to past 2pm.
I received a call from KKH IVF lab guy in the evening. I think his name is Chong. According to him, they had rechecked the 2 "unusable" embryos again before discard and realised that one of them is actually good and will be frozen together with the 3rd left over from this morning's ET! I was elated. Vince was slightly pissed why they did not check thoroughly before this. But who cares! It was more important to me, that I now have 2 frozen embryos instead of one! And thank god! for had I ET 3 this morning, this newly rescued grade 3 embryo would be a standalone. Its all mental but I strongly believed the survival rate for a single embryo is freaking low but now my chances have improved!! What can be better than this? oh perhaps if I get twin girls? Though it might freak me out on the increased expenses of rearing 2 new babies, I believe that if God should bless me with my longed for girls, He will also provide for me. Amen!
and here they are! my possible babies currently at 6-cells each!
I was finally called to the ET room at 5mins to 9am. The embryo room was just next to the ET room. Soon, the embryologist arrive. Spouses were allowed and Vince sat at a chair next to mine. Mine was a huge incliner with stirrups and attached with scanning machines, monitor and all. I thought it would be my turn soon but Dr Loh was so slow in coming and my bladder was again full and though the staff nurse&embryologist tried to make me more comfortable by lying me down instead of sitting, it just wasn't helping and after about 10mins, I ran to the toilet despite the shock on their faces .. erm, I seriously do not think I was the first to go to the toilet while waiting on the ET chair? anyway, I do want the procedure to end fast, and I do know they cannot scan unless my bladder is full. I was also told that a full bladder pushes the womb downwards and will be much easier for ET. So, with that inflicted into my brain, I controlled myself and let go of just a tiny bit out of my bladder. I din't know that was possible until today!
When I went back to the ET room, I was still feeling urgent. But since I had waited for about 15mins, I thought my dear Dr Loh would soon arrive .. oh yes he did, after 20mins of wait in all. By then I was delirious & my mind was practically empty. And the cool man walked in with a cup of coffee. I exclaimed:" thank god, you are finally here! what!! i'm dying! 你还喝咖啡!".. He only smile and tell me to relax .. hur? You try that, Mr Cool Man.
And then he told me:
6 eggs retrieved
5 ready & fertilized
3 were usable, grade 3
1 unusable
I grumbled and complaint to Dr Loh that I was so upset so disappointed I only ER 6 eggs! Having sufferred PCO all my life, its time it does something for me isnt it? Dr Loh laughed and said cuz IVF dr scared I will get OHSS la, blah blah blah, so only give me lowest dosage of gonal-f, ie 150iu .. I said I felt well throughout the entire process, they should have more guts than this.
And the million dollar question:
me: "so dr, what happens if I fail this cycle?"
dr: "try again?"
me: "huh? try another cycle?!! NO WAY! No way am I going to put myself through this process again!"
dr: "aiya don think so much la, you know, most of my patients who have already had one kid succeed at fresh cycle. You will also la, who knows you might get twins!"
me: "better be the case cuz thawed embryo might not survive ~"
dr: "erm .. yes . "
I was asked if I wanted to transfer 2 or 3 embryos. Dr Loh said its up to me? And I was surprised cuz under govt subsidy, patients are only allowed 2 embryos each time. I asked his opinion and he said 2. And I agreed. At that moment, I didnt know I had made a very important decision!
With my legs in stirrups, and all covered up except where the embryos were to be transferred in, the staff nurse placed the ultrascan on my stomach & after all verificatison is done, Dr Loh began transferring the embryos in. It was embrassing having a male sitting right between your legs .. well, I was still embrassed and I covered my face with my shawl throughout .. silly me. Nonetheless, the procedure went pretty well and was over in less than 10mins. The first thing I did thereafter was to ruuuuuuuuun to the toilet.
While waiting outside the ET room for my report, I saw a frantic lady along the corridor. The moment we had eye contact, she asked if I was done? and that she was still waiting for her turn. I said she could go release some of her bladder but she said she is the sort who will release it all and would not be able to hold back .. She got a shock when she heard had sat in the ET room for 20mins while waiting for D-Man!
After collecting the medicine from the pharmacy, Vince sent me to my mom-in-law's place to rest while he goes to work. Rest I did. I napped from 11 to past 2pm.
And I had to do use these 3 x a day (8am, 3pm, 12am) to support the lining. Each box of 30 caps cost $21.30 & I was given 100 over pills for use till 25 Oct. No payment was made. The cost will be dededucted through my medisave.
I was given this schedule and hopefully I do not have to run back to KKH for unscheduled visits (CHOY!).
Friday, October 07, 2011
D Day ~!!
Today is a school holiday so we left Ky at mum's place for a stayover. I was feeling so nervous, so scared. I hate operating theatres! But this IS the day we have been looking forward to & working so hard towards. As usual, I texted the friend who would understand exactly how I felt. And she made me felt so much better.
I was at the clinic 10mins ahead of time. Vince was given a bottle and brought to the sperm bank. After putting a name tag on my wrist, a nurse led me to the female changing room to change into white gown & pink kimono for cover up, wearing nothing underneath. I then sat outside the Ops theatre for my turn. About 5mins later, I was led to a corner where a nurse verified my personal details and inserted a tube into my left hand. Having had this done twice before, I knew its going to be painful. And yes, it wasn't a disappointment. It hurts! And then I sat back outside the Ops theatre to wait for my turn. One other patient was there and she told me she is also dr sf loh's patient, she has a 4yr old daughter and she has about 7-8 follicles. She started Lucrin on 9 Sep, 3 days later than me. 5 mins later, I was led to the theatre. It was a frantic of activities within. So much for a "production line". A nurse, Sara, whom i always seen manning the counter (I guess they rotates duties) was within, preparing me for Dr loh who thankfully arrived in about 5mins. He was late for Irene's and she was freezing in the theatre. LOL.
While Sara prepares me, another nurse on my right was busy with don't know what and 3 activities happened at the same time. The anesthetic goes in through the tube on my left hand, some was inserted at where the follicles were to be extracted and a mask goes on to my face all at the same time. The next I knew, I was at the recovery ward & feeling really really happy though I was still dizzy. Happy cos I finally got through ER!! Basically, the whole procedure is painless except the tube in my hand. I did not have a good sleep and kept having dreams. Vince was in all the 3 different dreams I had in that span of 2hrs. I woke up at 11:30am, had a glass of warm water, got changed and was debriefed by the same nurse who put the tube into my left hand.
And I was told 6 eggs were retrieved. 6! I stared at the nurse and asked unbelievably. 6? are you sure its only 6?? I had more than 26! I was so upset I felt like crying. After having the tube removed from my hand and collecting my hospitalization leave chit, I waited outside the consultation room for Vince to pick me up. Then i texted Irene, and the more I wrote her, the more I find myself tear. Irene had 24 eggs removed but only 15 were successfully fertilized. She had 2 for her fresh cycle and the balance frozen. When she failed her first cycle and went for her 1st frozen cycle, 7 embroyos were thawed but just 3 survived. 2 was transferred, 1 refrozen. So in my heart, I panicked. I wonder just how many out of the miserable 6 I retrieved is going to be successfully fertilized? Is it too much to ask of God to have all 6 to be of good quality? Even if half of them got fertilized, my guess is I only have one single chance to conceive, ie the fresh cycle. I do not have the confident that my thawed eggs (if any at all) can survive for a frozen cycle.
Regardless of the quality of the eggs, I was to be there at 8:30am on Monday, 10-Oct-2011 for ET. I was so upset because I had suffered PCO for years! Isn't it time it does something for me? Of all the times, it had to fail me during IVF. I had expected 20 eggs ET at least. I just knew I am not going through this again if I fail to conceive. I salute those women who went through multiple cycles, cause I know I can't. I refuse to put myself through IVF again.
Vince came from home and we went for lunch at compass point before heading home. I had a quick shower and slept till 8.30pm. My dear mother-in-law was so sweet. She made me chicken soup and all my favorite dishes. I was not feeling too well to go over so I had Vince pack dinner back for me instead. Thanks to my MIL, I don't have to take Brands chicken essence. While driving me home from KKH, Vince told me the first thing he did when he reached home (after giving his sperm at the National Sperm Bank), was to have a huge cup of coffee equivalent to the intensity of a double espresso. He is a heavy coffee drinker, always have it black and thick 5 cups a day. I had him cut down to 1 a day. He told me he felt like he has no energy at all for the last 2 weeks and today.
All I can do now is to wait patiently for Monday to come and hope all my eggs are of good quality. My hospitalization leave is from 7 Oct to 25 Oct 2011.
6 Sep to 5 Oct: 10units Lucrin (30 jabs)
22 Sep to 4 Oct: 150units Gonal-f (13 jabs)
5 Oct: 10,000units Pregnyl (at 9pm O&G clinic)
6 Oct: fast from 11:30pm
7 Oct: Ovum Pick-Up Day
I was at the clinic 10mins ahead of time. Vince was given a bottle and brought to the sperm bank. After putting a name tag on my wrist, a nurse led me to the female changing room to change into white gown & pink kimono for cover up, wearing nothing underneath. I then sat outside the Ops theatre for my turn. About 5mins later, I was led to a corner where a nurse verified my personal details and inserted a tube into my left hand. Having had this done twice before, I knew its going to be painful. And yes, it wasn't a disappointment. It hurts! And then I sat back outside the Ops theatre to wait for my turn. One other patient was there and she told me she is also dr sf loh's patient, she has a 4yr old daughter and she has about 7-8 follicles. She started Lucrin on 9 Sep, 3 days later than me. 5 mins later, I was led to the theatre. It was a frantic of activities within. So much for a "production line". A nurse, Sara, whom i always seen manning the counter (I guess they rotates duties) was within, preparing me for Dr loh who thankfully arrived in about 5mins. He was late for Irene's and she was freezing in the theatre. LOL.
While Sara prepares me, another nurse on my right was busy with don't know what and 3 activities happened at the same time. The anesthetic goes in through the tube on my left hand, some was inserted at where the follicles were to be extracted and a mask goes on to my face all at the same time. The next I knew, I was at the recovery ward & feeling really really happy though I was still dizzy. Happy cos I finally got through ER!! Basically, the whole procedure is painless except the tube in my hand. I did not have a good sleep and kept having dreams. Vince was in all the 3 different dreams I had in that span of 2hrs. I woke up at 11:30am, had a glass of warm water, got changed and was debriefed by the same nurse who put the tube into my left hand.
And I was told 6 eggs were retrieved. 6! I stared at the nurse and asked unbelievably. 6? are you sure its only 6?? I had more than 26! I was so upset I felt like crying. After having the tube removed from my hand and collecting my hospitalization leave chit, I waited outside the consultation room for Vince to pick me up. Then i texted Irene, and the more I wrote her, the more I find myself tear. Irene had 24 eggs removed but only 15 were successfully fertilized. She had 2 for her fresh cycle and the balance frozen. When she failed her first cycle and went for her 1st frozen cycle, 7 embroyos were thawed but just 3 survived. 2 was transferred, 1 refrozen. So in my heart, I panicked. I wonder just how many out of the miserable 6 I retrieved is going to be successfully fertilized? Is it too much to ask of God to have all 6 to be of good quality? Even if half of them got fertilized, my guess is I only have one single chance to conceive, ie the fresh cycle. I do not have the confident that my thawed eggs (if any at all) can survive for a frozen cycle.
Regardless of the quality of the eggs, I was to be there at 8:30am on Monday, 10-Oct-2011 for ET. I was so upset because I had suffered PCO for years! Isn't it time it does something for me? Of all the times, it had to fail me during IVF. I had expected 20 eggs ET at least. I just knew I am not going through this again if I fail to conceive. I salute those women who went through multiple cycles, cause I know I can't. I refuse to put myself through IVF again.
Vince came from home and we went for lunch at compass point before heading home. I had a quick shower and slept till 8.30pm. My dear mother-in-law was so sweet. She made me chicken soup and all my favorite dishes. I was not feeling too well to go over so I had Vince pack dinner back for me instead. Thanks to my MIL, I don't have to take Brands chicken essence. While driving me home from KKH, Vince told me the first thing he did when he reached home (after giving his sperm at the National Sperm Bank), was to have a huge cup of coffee equivalent to the intensity of a double espresso. He is a heavy coffee drinker, always have it black and thick 5 cups a day. I had him cut down to 1 a day. He told me he felt like he has no energy at all for the last 2 weeks and today.
All I can do now is to wait patiently for Monday to come and hope all my eggs are of good quality. My hospitalization leave is from 7 Oct to 25 Oct 2011.
6 Sep to 5 Oct: 10units Lucrin (30 jabs)
22 Sep to 4 Oct: 150units Gonal-f (13 jabs)
5 Oct: 10,000units Pregnyl (at 9pm O&G clinic)
6 Oct: fast from 11:30pm
7 Oct: Ovum Pick-Up Day
these 4 tablets alone costs a whopping $22.96!
Wednesday, October 05, 2011
the last jab ~ 10,000 units of pregnyl
We just returned from my last jab of the IVF cycle, a 10,000 units of pregnyl. We were at the O&G(24hrs) clinic 20mins ahead of the 9pm appointment. I was apprehensive and abit scared.. silly, given that i have self adminstered 40over jabs since 6 Sep. It turns out to be fine actually, the staff nurse is so experienced i didn't even notice the needle going in but as I removed the plaster before shower, the spot was a little painful and sore. We were in and out of the clinic in 20mins and we reached home at 9:30pm.
Tomorrow's a rest day before ER on Friday morning except I have to start fasting from 11:30pm. Not an issue since I do not have the habit of taking supper.
And now I'm showered, settled down in front of the TV with my laptop catching up on work, or rather preparing my backup list so I could free myself up to coach Kristy on GID orders so she could do my Samsung .. and at the same time feeling scared about ER on Friday .. sigh ..
my 2 x 5,000iu of pregnyl
my schedule ~
Tomorrow's a rest day before ER on Friday morning except I have to start fasting from 11:30pm. Not an issue since I do not have the habit of taking supper.
And now I'm showered, settled down in front of the TV with my laptop catching up on work, or rather preparing my backup list so I could free myself up to coach Kristy on GID orders so she could do my Samsung .. and at the same time feeling scared about ER on Friday .. sigh ..
Tuesday, October 04, 2011
4th scan - confirmed ER date!
Heavy downpour as we leave home and we were a couple of minutes late. Luckily the centre wasn't too packed by the time I arrived and I got my scan done after waiting for 20mins. My! That was a record. And I thought I could get back to office earlier today but no, the wait for consultation was so long!
And today was only a slight improvement to yesterday. 1 follicle at 17.5, 2 at 17 and the rest are 15 and below. The dr said she consulted Dr sf Loh and confirmed ET this Friday, 7 Oct. I do not have enough Lucrin for tomorrow's jab (last jab!) and had to buy a 2nd bottle .. its such a waste! because I will only need one dosage out of 28 that I paid for! There were enough for one more jab (both Lurin & gonal-f) out of my balanced medication, so the staff nurse did both for me today during the consultation. I do not have to return for a scan tomorrow morming. However, I am to take my last dosage of Lucrin at 8:30am in the morning, and return to O&G 24hrs clinic at 9pm for a final jab of HCG Pregnyl 10,000units. My fasting will start at 11:30pm and nothing should be taken till after the Op on Friday morning. Thankfully, my appointment is at 8:30am as I had hoped.
And today was only a slight improvement to yesterday. 1 follicle at 17.5, 2 at 17 and the rest are 15 and below. The dr said she consulted Dr sf Loh and confirmed ET this Friday, 7 Oct. I do not have enough Lucrin for tomorrow's jab (last jab!) and had to buy a 2nd bottle .. its such a waste! because I will only need one dosage out of 28 that I paid for! There were enough for one more jab (both Lurin & gonal-f) out of my balanced medication, so the staff nurse did both for me today during the consultation. I do not have to return for a scan tomorrow morming. However, I am to take my last dosage of Lucrin at 8:30am in the morning, and return to O&G 24hrs clinic at 9pm for a final jab of HCG Pregnyl 10,000units. My fasting will start at 11:30pm and nothing should be taken till after the Op on Friday morning. Thankfully, my appointment is at 8:30am as I had hoped.
Monday, October 03, 2011
3rd scan - hopeful ER on Wed
And we were back at kkh again this morning for another scan to determine if I am good enough for retrieval on Wed. We were abit late, reaching only at 9:10am and waited about an hour for the scan, 45mins for consultation, 20mins at the pharmacy. OK not too bad today, I have 2 follies measuring 17mm, 3 at 14-15mm and a good number of them at 9-13mm. I hope to have more of them grown to 17mm .. must go home and pray.
I forgot to bring my left-over drugs this morning so they could not tell if I had enough of Gonal-f. I am certain I have enough Lucrin to last another jab though. I saw another dr today, she looks like a south african, very very dark and twisted hair. LOL .. anyway given the time I am probably dued for ER, they do not want to despatch a full 300units gonal-f. That pen which will see me through 2 jabs will cost about $205. And so, dr prescribed me with 2 x 75units & told me to return the next day. And I dutifully collected my appointment form and headed to the pharmacy for my prescription. Oh my! A days' Gonal-f actually cost a good $110.10!
And I finally reached office at 11:50am. I had been reading and replying messages on my BB while waiting at kkh and I knew how busy I'm going to be today, given that I have had the entire morning gone. Thank God for his blessing. I was talking to Kristy at the pantry and decided to open the new gonal-f box. I was surprised to see not a pen, but a pre-filled syringe, a bottle containing some white powder, and two needles, one fine & one frightfully thick! I rang kkh and was told to return so they could tell me how to administer the drug. Apparently the nurse had forgotten to tell me to return after collecting it at the pharmacy! OK fine, since everyone was out for lunch, I had vince come and send me over. They had cleared all patients and I was the only patient at kkh. ivf centre starts their day real early & ends early too. Sara taught me how to but did the jab for me & i returned to the office in exactly an hour since I left for kkh. Not too bad, but I have to stay back to catch up on work.
Naturally, 有人欢喜有人愁. While I am happy that D-Day is drawing near, my boss is pretty unhappy about my impending 2 weeks hospitalisation leave. She aint happy about the scan I had to do every morning as well. She told my colleaguse this is "not a good time" for me to go on such leaves & that I should have given IVF a go when I had lessor projects on hand. I was not disappointed at what was being said because I had expected that from her. Women who conceive easily will never feel for me, what I had to go through. The fact is, I have been trying for a 2nd child for a few years. And I remembered a couple of years back, when Audrey said she was ready for a child and will be planning for one, I was told to judge and not clash with hers. So tell me, when then is a good time? It was a big decision for me to go for IVF.
I know of people wh go through all kinds of alternatives treatment and not give any consideration to IVF. I was like that too. For years, I had seen different gynaes, seen different TMC, taken horribly awful chinese medicine, swallow tons of pills and supplements, acupuncture, etc. If I had known those were useless, I would still have hesitated if I should go for IVF. And boss, yes I will come back to work after 2 wks and no, I am not lazy and certainly not a dumb cow (like someone) who uses all sorts of lousy and stupid excuses not to come to work just becuase she is pregnant. No I will still do my work, but you might want to know that morning sickness is something no one can control? And no, don't worry, I ain't going to put myself through another of this cycle if this one fails, though I should have enough embryos to freeze for a frozen cycle. And boss, please be aware too, that my success rate is only 30% and will decrease with age. So, tell me, when is a good time for IVF?
so early yet so packed ~ there wasn't a seat unoccupied saved for the ones outside the consultation rooms
I forgot to bring my left-over drugs this morning so they could not tell if I had enough of Gonal-f. I am certain I have enough Lucrin to last another jab though. I saw another dr today, she looks like a south african, very very dark and twisted hair. LOL .. anyway given the time I am probably dued for ER, they do not want to despatch a full 300units gonal-f. That pen which will see me through 2 jabs will cost about $205. And so, dr prescribed me with 2 x 75units & told me to return the next day. And I dutifully collected my appointment form and headed to the pharmacy for my prescription. Oh my! A days' Gonal-f actually cost a good $110.10!
And I finally reached office at 11:50am. I had been reading and replying messages on my BB while waiting at kkh and I knew how busy I'm going to be today, given that I have had the entire morning gone. Thank God for his blessing. I was talking to Kristy at the pantry and decided to open the new gonal-f box. I was surprised to see not a pen, but a pre-filled syringe, a bottle containing some white powder, and two needles, one fine & one frightfully thick! I rang kkh and was told to return so they could tell me how to administer the drug. Apparently the nurse had forgotten to tell me to return after collecting it at the pharmacy! OK fine, since everyone was out for lunch, I had vince come and send me over. They had cleared all patients and I was the only patient at kkh. ivf centre starts their day real early & ends early too. Sara taught me how to but did the jab for me & i returned to the office in exactly an hour since I left for kkh. Not too bad, but I have to stay back to catch up on work.
Naturally, 有人欢喜有人愁. While I am happy that D-Day is drawing near, my boss is pretty unhappy about my impending 2 weeks hospitalisation leave. She aint happy about the scan I had to do every morning as well. She told my colleaguse this is "not a good time" for me to go on such leaves & that I should have given IVF a go when I had lessor projects on hand. I was not disappointed at what was being said because I had expected that from her. Women who conceive easily will never feel for me, what I had to go through. The fact is, I have been trying for a 2nd child for a few years. And I remembered a couple of years back, when Audrey said she was ready for a child and will be planning for one, I was told to judge and not clash with hers. So tell me, when then is a good time? It was a big decision for me to go for IVF.
I know of people wh go through all kinds of alternatives treatment and not give any consideration to IVF. I was like that too. For years, I had seen different gynaes, seen different TMC, taken horribly awful chinese medicine, swallow tons of pills and supplements, acupuncture, etc. If I had known those were useless, I would still have hesitated if I should go for IVF. And boss, yes I will come back to work after 2 wks and no, I am not lazy and certainly not a dumb cow (like someone) who uses all sorts of lousy and stupid excuses not to come to work just becuase she is pregnant. No I will still do my work, but you might want to know that morning sickness is something no one can control? And no, don't worry, I ain't going to put myself through another of this cycle if this one fails, though I should have enough embryos to freeze for a frozen cycle. And boss, please be aware too, that my success rate is only 30% and will decrease with age. So, tell me, when is a good time for IVF?
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