i've always feared the delivery process. one fren told me, if i can slash myself with a knife and endure the pain, i can endure delivery pain too. my mother in law said it was like constipation, one kind ex-boss told me it was nothing compared to holding my very own in my arms. I think she is right.
God has blessed me with an easy delivery. labour started with a dull lower backache & abdominal pain, much like menstration pain, only both came at the same time. That was around 6am on 12 November 04. it was coming every 10mins & being a first timer, i wasnt too sure if its the real thing. anyway, even if it was, i guessed i would have tons of time before the actual delivery so i endured .. meanwhile pacing & catching a nap at home. i summon my husband back in the afternoon when it became more & more painful. i just want him by my side.. though i still endured .. i knew it would be most comfortable to be at home than the cold delivery room ..
it was 10pm when the pain was coming on every 5mins. Still, i endured, meanwhile coaxing vince to catch whatever sleep he can. it was at 2am that the pain became really unbearable. i called phyllis and she reprimanded me for not admitting to mt alvernia!!
the road was quiet at 2am and vince drove as carefully as possible.. we finally reached the hospital at 2.30am. it was a series of tests, checks and clearing of bowels. i was 4cm dilated . i told the nurse i do not want an epidural as at now. i used the gas instead which smells weird and didnt help at all!!
it was 4.30am and the contractions were coming every 3mins & getting really painful, & so i asked for epidural. but i was already 7cm dilated. it was too late for one. The nurse asked me to cont' with the gas but added a harsh comment that she will remove it when its time to push and that gives me the shivers!
the pushing was tough..arrge! it hurts like mad & i was grabbing vince as i endured each contractions. i didnt know how to push the right way & wasted some strength .. dr soon finally came and i begged for help. i said i didnt wana push anymore. she was so calm & offered help, by vaccum suction. god! she should have came earlier! for baby kyros was out in just 3 contractions! it was a relief beyond words when i could finally hold him in my arms. the feeling was just overwelming! i am now a mummy!!
vince has been most supportive and without him, i would not hav been able to endure the whole process without the epidural .. i love you my darling ..
